Saturday, January 29, 2011

Questions & No Answers



I love the morning after
With dawn light coffee brew
Crumpled sheets
Possessive pillows
Will I make a cuppa for you
Or leave a note before I go?

Like those questions
For a bloody matrimony
I don’t have to go
I do
I don’t know your ways
I do?

With last January mist
Past sweepers joggers
On the first bus to a lonely beach
Without your sweet words
And other crap
Love’s sweeter alone bereft?

My ways are simple
Boring routine
Of give and take
Without doubt
I will give myself
Will you take it?

Do I have time for proud men
Who wish to speak but not reply?

Do I care for wise women
Without humour to mock oneself?

Do I prefer the judge that idiot
Or friends happy with the award?

Do I listen to your studied silence
Or wait for you to speak?

My ways are simple
Boring routine
Of give and take
Without doubt
I will take you
Will you give it?

You have your answers
I will listen
For once with mouth wide shut
I will remember you
Sounds like fickle infidelity
Without my answers?







Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Tell Me, My Love

 

Tell Me, My Love
 
I have returned after a long train-journey. In the last two-hour stretch, there were just eight or ten people in the whole compartment. We were familiar with each other, exchanging polite smiles if not words while waiting near the toilet, stinking alike the smell of second-class sleeper compartments, running for water bottles at train stations, getting the same packets of food, and helping each other climb back on.
 
My companions scattered across the compartment included a sweaty middle-aged bookish man with hairy armpits who should have worn something more than his much-holed undergarment; two young ladies, nurses in some city hospital; a mid-forties British couple, cheaply but decently dressed, the only ones laughing and enjoying in that budget group; a military man of about thirty going home, sleeping most of the time; and, a young man with a novel and two textbooks for government interviews.
 
It was late evening, still one hour away from home, where the green backwater lakes are barely separated from the blue frothy sea by a thin shimmer of brown sand, when the British guy started to sing.
 
I could hear his voice across those separating walls. Bass voice, not really a good singer, using an old style, a mixture of Bob Dylan or Al Stewart or Cat Stevens. Along with the chug-chugging train, the rickety-rackety beat of wheels on tracks, the evening birdsong and the rush of cool air from outside, he sang in bursts, with pauses while cooking up those lines I suppose, but clear and slow.
 
Nothing great but I still tried to catch each word with the guilt and delight of a voyeur and an eavesdropper. Grasping, gasping, grappling…for life…with life…
 
Tell me, my love…
 
Why do these trees take a hundred years
Creeping growing for birds and pests?
Why do these fools shed a hundred tears
Chopping cutting for men and pets?
 
Tell me, my love…
 
Why do these young ones play together
Flirting laughing from God knows where?
Why do these forget to hate each other
Chanting praying for their God there?
 
Tell me, my love…
 
Why should I care when I have you?
Tracing caressing everywhere
Sucking tasting everywhere
Why should I care when I hear you:
 
Shut up, my love…
 
 
 
References:
·         Bob Dylan, Love Minus Zero/No Limit
 
·         Al Stewart, TheYear of the Cat
 
·         Cat Stevens, Moonshadow
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Saturday, January 8, 2011

I do not know

 

I do not know
Who to hate more.
Enemies, or
Kith and kin?
 
Strangers
Suitably
Slaughtered
Suffice?
 
Do I not know
Who will hurt more?
I do, I know.
I do not know.
 
 
Last year ended well. ‘Can I be your kaishaku when you commit hara-kiri?’ I asked Arjun. To quote the Godfather, it was ‘an offer he could not refuse’.
 
He has prepared well – I like his compilation more than mine:
 
Voiceless
New Nonentities
 
As for the promised hara-kiri, I think I know him well.