“He sleeps with my wife...” the husband pointed at the
lover, rising from his seat, eyes red, nostrils flared, lips quivering, his
mask slipping down to his chin, “and...I should apologise to him?”
Shekhar
stood up too. He reached for a pouch by his side. He used a hand sanitiser
liberally, then took out a new mask with a gloved hand and approached the angry
man.
“Put this on. The elastic in yours seems to have worn
off,” Shekhar said.
The
husband changed his mask and also accepted a dollop of sanitiser.
“Anyone
wants this?” Shekhar asked the
others. Two extended their hands.
There
were seven people in the courtyard of his house, beneath the canopy of fruit
trees. Shekhar returned to his seat in front
of the door. The others sat suitably socially distanced.
“This corona...when will life be normal again?” the
Panchayat president said. Looking at the two men whose case they were there to
deal with, she continued, “Maybe, life is as usual...”
The
Panchayat secretary was there too, disinterested, just as in office, waiting
for some incentive. The husband was with a friend. The lover did not have a
companion.
Shekhar’s younger brother Unni sat on a ledge near the
car-shed; his dog Spike, a boxer, by his side. The guests kept an eye on the unleashed
dog.
“You have to apologise for assaulting him,” Shekhar said.
The
husband’s friend started to protest. The husband raised a hand to quell that.
He glared angrily at Shekhar and mumbled an
apology. Shekhar shook his head.
The
husband stood up, faced the lover of his wife and said, “I am sorry for
hitting you.” His fists remained
clenched even after he sat down. The lover kept his eyes on Shekhar during the
apology.
“We thank you, sir,” Shekhar
said.
He
shifted his attention to the lover who returned a defiant look.
“As for you, sir...” Shekhar said, “you know that you
deserve the punishment you will get, don’t you?”
“You...the village King Solomon...in this house...deciding my
punishment?” the lover spat out
those words and laughed. “What wrong have I done that has not been done here? Go
on, punish me...but, first
tell me why there is no punishment for the people of this house.”
Shekhar leaned back in his seat. Unni stood up, folded his mundu (dhoti). Spike growled, teeth bared. The others rose too, eyes darting from Shekhar to Unni and the dog.
xxx
My name is Gayathri and Shekhar is my husband. I first
met him under similar circumstances, but without Unni and his dog there then to
give me a scare.
My
father has a plot of land in this village of Puratheymuri (Outside
Room). For a decade or so, a poor distant relative named Vasu lived
there with his family. He then asked my father for a portion of the land,
citing the legal right of a kudikidappukaran
(tenant). My father refused.
Another
relative, a member of the village Panchayat, suggested mediation. “Do you two want to
make some lawyers rich? Listen to me...let’s have a meeting with Shekhar.”
“Who is Shekhar?” I asked.
“Shekhar
is a teacher in the village school,” the
relative replied. “He is good with these kind of talks.”
Later,
he confided just to us, “The village uses Shekhar for such stuff. Not just disputes...managing the temple, the festival,
the community meals...for what? Who wants the trouble...who wants to bear
the extra
expenses?”
“Sounds like he is an idiot,” I said.
“Well, Shekhar is not that...he too must be
profiting...somehow...we just don’t know how...”
I
went along with my father for the mediation meeting too.
It
took place in the conference room of the Panchayat office. Shekhar was there before
us. We had to wait an hour for the Panchayat president and secretary. Shekhar
informed us that the wait was to make sure we felt like contributing to the Panchayat
President’s Fund,
an euphemism for a bribe.
“Your land is lovely,” Shekhar said, “next to the river, with little streams.”
“You seem to be familiar with the place,” my father
said.
“My great grandfather gifted it to your grandmother,” Shekhar said. He looked at me for the first time and
added, “You should take care of the land.”
The
others arrived then.
Shekhar sat away from the conference table, merged with the shadows. The rest of us crowded around.
“Do you have any suggestions?” the president asked Shekhar.
“No, Vasu has the law behind him.” Shekhar paused. “Vasu, where do you live now?”
The
president butted
in.
“He has inherited his mother’s property. It’s in
between your
land, Shekhar. Don’t you remember...the land your father gave Saradamma?
Vasu is her son.”
“Oh...do you have access to the road, Vasu?”
“No,
sir,” Vasu said. “We go via the paddy field.”
Shekhar
slipped into thought for a while.
“I have a suggestion,” Shekhar said, “say yes if you agree, it’s not open for discussion.”
The
president nodded. My father and Vasu remained silent.
“Vasu, I will give you ten cents of my land adjacent to
your property, equivalent to your claim on their plot. You will then have
access to the road. Drop your claim on theirs. Let them have it whole,” Shekhar said. “Is that ok?”
“Yes,” Vasu and my father said.
The
president announced
the meeting closed before I could ask about our costs. She spoke to us about
other matters till Vasu and my father made contributions to the President’s fund. Shekhar disappeared from the scene.
A
week later, I understood his deal-making.
Shekhar spoke to my father on the phone, “Will your daughter
accept me as her husband?”
My
father was surprised when I told him, “Tell him I need a few
days to think.”
xxx
I
was thirty one.
My
parents' was
a love marriage, inter-caste, inter-class, quite an event then. My father got
to be a middle-level manager before he opted for a voluntary retirement scheme.
My parents used his severance pay and a bank loan to build our house. My mother retired
as a general manager of
a public sector bank.
My
sister older by two years was my nemesis, not by any deed or
malice from her end. She is pretty and fair and has JLo's rear.
I am dusky and have broad shoulders. In
school, she was the teachers’ pet and an overall star. I thought of cooking up a nervous breakdown to explain
my low marks.
Situation
improved after school. She chose to become a doctor and I an engineer. I was in
the top five per cent of my batch, my project on audio-visual systems got a
gold medal and even a mention in the local rags. I had dreams:
a MBA from
Wharton, front cover of Forbes, a role-model for women entrepreneurs.
I got a job in a telecommunications company. I worked
hard, asked for tough tasks, did not take leave in my three years there,
endured spells of migraine and debilitating cramps. I watched men get
the best opportunities. When I complained,
a lady in Human Resources gave
me a lecture. I left the company and enrolled for a MBA
course in a top-tier Indian institute.
My
sister had a love marriage around then, her guy a handsome and brilliant
batchmate. My parents were glad at first to be spared the troubles of arranging
a marriage for at least one daughter. My sister’s in-laws accepted my sister wholeheartedly. But, they
did not offer to foot any bill related to the wedding expenses. They also
hinted to my parents that my sister’s financial independence should be ensured.
My parents gifted gold, fixed deposits, a Honda car and also promised our
house. When my sister got pregnant, my parents bore all the medical expenses at
a five-star clinic. My
brother-in-law remained oblivious of all that was gifted to him. My sister did not complain either. I told my parents what they needed to hear then, that
marriage was the last thing on my mind.
I
used all my savings for the MBA course. I got involved with a batchmate from the north, a nice
good looking chap. That affair ended when he called me frigid.
Through
campus recruitment, I joined a consultancy firm with projects in India and
abroad. I stuck to my old routine of working hard, appearing asexual, building
a career. I used the new skills learned during MBA: I was deferential when it
served some purpose; and, I did not complain to anyone.
There
were days when I revisited my schoolgirl plan of having a nervous breakdown.
There were also more days when I pined for company.
I met Markus, through a
colleague, when I was posted in London. Markus was a gentle bear of a man, a
motivational speaker, a vegan with two grown-up kids from an early marriage.
That lasted three years and ended when I accepted a job back home, with greater
challenges and at a higher level.
My
old set of four friends had all married and migrated. My best friend was a
cardiologist in the US and with two kids; the other three were doing equally
well in Australia, Dubai and the Netherlands. They could not understand why I
had returned to live with my parents. Neither could I.
That
was the situation when Shekhar proposed.
xxx
I
found out more about him and his family
with help from the relative in the Panchayat.
Shekhar was about forty years old then, the eldest of six
kids. He has four sisters, all married. The brother
is about twenty years younger than him. Their parents died soon after Unni was
born. Their main source of income is
agriculture.
“How
does he have so much land?” I asked.
I
was given a brief history of the village Puratheymuri.
Sometime
in the sixteenth or seventeenth century, a prince with exquisite tastes in
music and arts, a rare royal who had dared to cross the seas, brought home a
friend from foreign lands.
The
foreigner was of medium height, stocky build, languorous movement, with skin
the colour of ancient dark wood. The coal black eyes of the visitor were the
most captivating.
The
prince had a palace artist capture just those eyes. I visited the City Museum
and found that canvas titled ‘Depths of Comfort’ in a far corner. I felt I could sleep well with those dark eyes
watching over me.
Back
to the history lesson.
The
royal family made it clear that the dark person from Lanka or Africa or
wherever was not to be entertained on palace grounds. In retaliation, the
prince announced that he was giving
his friend land not less than one thousand acres. In fact, that was the last
thing the prince did. He died prematurely. Recent studies suggest that he had
advanced syphillis.
The
royals were advised to declare the last gift null and void citing mental
infirmity. The royals did not want to set such a precedent.
They
gave the foreigner the promised land in the godforsaken Puratheymuri.
The
long-forgotten people
of the village were ready to be the beasts of burden of the new landlord. They
were surprised, and
uncomfortable, to find their landlord working with them every day, a dark beast
wearing a cotton wrap at the waist with loin cloth beneath, a cap made of palm
leaf on the head and,
worst of all, sharing the food their lowly women cooked near the fields.
He
married the daughter of the second-most richest
man in the village. She died young after
giving him couple of kids. A widow who worked in his kitchen became his
companion. They too had couple of kids. His kids were good workers like him.
They found companions in the village and outside, some by marriage, most by
mature consent. A few generations later, there was not a house in the village
untouched by the foreigner, by way of genes and customs.
Shekhar is his
descendant.
I
wondered if he wanted me to be the first wife who dies young or the companion
in his kitchen.
xxx
Two
days after I raised the green flag, he came with two sisters to meet me and my
folk. Shekhar and I went to my room. He sat when I offered him my chair. We sat
in silence for a minute or two.
A
smile crept into his dark eyes and lips. I must have frowned.
“Any questions...observations?” he asked.
“Aren’t we a total mismatch?” I blurted out.
“How so?” The
smile on his lips broadened to a crooked grin.
“First, my work...I do not want to give up my career.
Second, background...I am not at all suited for village life.”
“First, your office in Technocity is equidistant from the city and Puratheymuri.
Second, true...life in Puratheymuri is different,” he
replied.
“You don’t mind me continuing with my career?” I asked, not hiding my surprise.
“I should be the one wary of you stopping my current
activities,” that came with a wry
grin. “Gaia, you will be fine
there.” Those comforting black eyes!
“My name
is Gayathri.”
“Accept me as your husband if you can tolerate the name
Gaia...with an i, not a y.” He stood up.
“That’s it?” I queried.
He
laughed, a hearty laugh I would have liked to share.
“Shouldn’t we talk more...what you want from me or...our past?” I asked.
“I want to be your husband, Gaia...with time, that want
might become a need,” he
said. “As for the past...Gaia, I hope the day won’t come when our present is intolerable and the future
seems hopeless that we will have only the past.”
I
liked the way he kept on saying Gaia.
Matrimony
might be designed in heaven but it has been decided more often with such
whimsical observations.
The
wedding was a middle-class affair with about thousand guests. My four close
friends came from abroad. We have to attend to believe you are doing this, they
said.
Shekhar
and his people came in six cars and twenty buses. The rustic lot wore cheaper
costumes. They could not beat the city rush to the dining hall either.
I
was quite pleased when my friends were rather impressed with Shekhar. You are
the rustic one and not he, they whispered to me on stage. I scowled. That was
captured by the photographers. That was not the first embarrassing shot of the
day. For the first photo, after the wedding vows, he had his right arm around
my back, hand at my side, a warm farmer’s hold, dark tan on dusky hue, his thumb touching the
blouse, near my right breast, the palm and other fingers on the bare curve from
the blouse to the saree at the waist. Girl, you looked like a beet root, my
friends later
squealed in my ear.
When
I reached Puratheymuri later that day, I was more a pale yam. His
sisters rushed through the welcoming ceremony and took me to one of their
bedrooms.
Shekhar
came to the room after I had refreshed and changed saree.
I
must have looked as if I was in pain.
“Are the cramps bad? Please lie down. Should I get some
medicine?” he asked.
“No,” I mumbled.
“You can skip the reception dinner if you are not up to
it,”
he said.
“I am fine...surprised...that’s
all.”
“Then, why are you looking so worried?”
I
felt like kicking him. I could see he was trying to hold back his loud laugh.
“Gaia,” he
smiled, “I don’t know how it’s like in the city, but in a village a woman might be
slightly worried on her wedding day only if she has missed her period.”
I
must have glared well. He went out with a chuckle and sent his youngest sister
to escort me to the reception party.
His
sisters helped me to settle in before they left for their homes.
The
ground floor was vast, with Shekhar’s and Unni’s bedrooms, two guest bedrooms, the living room, the
dining and kitchen area and Shekhar’s office-cum-study. The first time, I hesitated at the
door to his study. He noticed.
“It’s your house,” he said.
The
first floor was being refurbished.
“The
finishing touches need your input,” he said.
I
was surprised. The first floor was mine: a King-size bed, a lounge with TV and
seating, wardrobe, bathroom, walk-in closet, prayer room, office space and what
really floored me, a library.
That
was ready for me on the thirteenth day. Shekhar stood by the door while I
swirled around, giddy with delight.
“May I enter?” Shekhar asked.
“It’s your house,” I
replied.
Shekhar
shook his head.
“Oh, come in, you idiot,” I responded, then ticked myself off with, “...oops!”
Shekhar
laughed.
He
removed his house slipper before entering what he described as “the sanctum-sanctorum
of the house with you installed within”.
The
consummation happened on my King-size bed that night. Shekhar took his time, he
was gentle. I had two doubts after that and he had one.
He
asked me if it was ok for me. I replied it was great. I asked him whether it
was ok for him. Oh yes, he said. But you didn’t, I smothered the rest. Don’t worry about that, he said, a guy gets the most
pleasure when the girl’s happy. I didn’t fake it, I exclaimed without any need for such a
declaration. I loved how his dark face glowed. I did not voice my second doubt,
whether he had noticed that I was not a virgin. As he once said, that is the
irrelevant inconsequential past.
xxx
When
I returned to office, I did not feel any major change. Some days I drove to
work, other days I used the driver Shekhar appointed for me. I took care of my
new home. Shekhar, Unni and a few part-time helps did their part. Initially, I
was wary of returning home late or staying up late in my home-office to
complete work. Shekhar did not disturb me then and slept in his bedroom
downstairs those nights. At times, Shekhar and Unni too left early and returned
late. I was one of the gang.
Three
ladies in the village took the place of my old set of four urban friends.
Meena’s husband is in the Gulf and she manages their
business in the village, a ‘hotel-cum-bar’. She took
me around the village in her open Jeep.
Sindhu is single,
a gossip, an expert cook and has a catering business.
Rekha is a bank manager. Her husband is an Undersecretary in the State Secretariat. They
had tried living in the city but after a few years decided to commute from the
village.
Through
them, I got to know about some ‘rural legends’ about my menfolk.
“Ah,
Unni...isn’t
he a lamb? But, don’t be around if he folds his mundu...” Sindhu said.
Meena
rolled her eyes.
“Come
on, Meena, what happened in your bar? Gayathri...” Sindhu included a dramatic pause for special effect. “Shekhar was there to
settle some issue with another
bar owner. Someone said something derogatory about Shekhar. Unni was sitting
quietly till then. He got up. And, folded his mundu...phew, who knows how many were admitted to hospital
that day.”
Sindhu
knew she had my attention.
“Then, Shekhar...” the
same old pause, the protests from the other two and my conspiratorial silence, “if he says let’s walk to the river for a talk, run in the opposite
direction!”
“Stop it, Sindhu,” Meena
warned.
I
laughed nervously.
Sindhu
took that as consent. “There was this guy Vamanan...a rascal who took loans
not only from the bank but from all of us. He used to be in the temple
committee. It’s
when some temple funds went missing that Shekhar took him for a walk to the
river for a talk...”
“And...?” I urged.
“We never saw Vamanan again...his family complained to
the police but that investigation went nowhere.”
“Don’t fill her head with...” Meena said.
“It’s true,” Rekha
said softly.
With
their help, I slowly understood the ways of the village.
“The freedom you...we get is unbelievable,” I told them once.
“What’s that old cliché?” Rekha
muttered, “With freedom comes responsibility.”
“That’s a bit too troublesome at times,” Sindhu added.
“I wouldn’t trade it for anything else,” Meena said.
I
thought a lot about my troubles with that freedom and responsibility.
xxx
My
career was going well. Shekhar did not interfere. Corporates love such married
employees, especially when they do not get pregnant. As for Shekhar’s career, if one could call it that, I gave suggestions
about teaching, problem-solving, mediation. He listened. He nodded. He smiled.
At
home, everything was (almost) great. My husband was good company, attentive
lover (with the same old handicap, though) and a (too) stable personality. Even though he got involved in disputes and
settlements, he tried to avoid it (especially at home).
Shekhar
continued to ask permission to enter my space. When his footwear was outside,
no one else knocked at my door; the same with Unni.
Unni
has his problems. He did not do well in studies. He has no problem in
interacting with people (if one ignores the rural legend). His devotion towards
Shekhar is phenomenal but then, that is reciprocated. Work is one area where he
competes with Shekhar and likes to win.
They
take me on rounds of their plots. The best view is from the hill Paramala.
“Can you make out something interesting in those
fields?” Shekhar asked.
I
studied the view more closely. “There’s some pattern in those fields,” I said.
“That’s Unni’s
handiwork,” Shekhar said with
pride. Unni grinned. “His experiment with farming...tell her...”
“G3....”
Unni started shyly. That is what he calls me. These men just cannot say the
three syllables that make Gayathri! “That central plot there...it’s the
traditional periodic planting. On others, I tried aperiodic and even quasi-periodic...”
“Well,
he has not yet proved to me that’s more effective farming...isn’t that so, Monay (son)?” Shekhar said, giving Unni an affectionate shove. Unni boxed back.
“Didn’t you tell me he finds it difficult to learn?” I whispered, when Unni was out of earshot.
“Leave him with his own thoughts and he’s capable of doing anything. Only problem is that it’s not to be evaluated, not the usual way,” Shekhar
said.
Unni’s relationships came with the same caveat. In his own
way, he was great; not by normal standards. He would never be marriage
material.
Unni
loves to flop down on the floor cushions in my library. He told me that Shekhar
used to read books to him when he was younger. I continued that practice. After
a few months, he too joined in the storytelling.
We
used stories to talk about ourselves. I was surprised and thrilled when Unni deftly
used objectivity, deception and eroticism. My stories were plain vanilla in
comparison.
With
him, I could talk about my past, my biggest fears and plans. He sulked when I was
busy. And he allowed me to throw tantrums. I tried it out on Shekhar too but he
was imperturbable. Unni was volatile and fun.
Shekhar
was the rock I could lean on. And Unni,
the unpredictable waves that crashed against me. I was in deep waters, enjoying
the different sensory perceptions.
The
physical attraction was inevitable. The toughest part was in conveying the
permissions he needed. Finally, quite exasperated, my heroine in a pulp fiction begged her guy not to remain an
idiot. He smiled shyly and left my room.
Next
day, I could feel his eyes on me. I stared back with mock outrage and modesty. He laughed. The
teasing got bolder. He let it smoulder.
Till
the day he said, “I need you.”
I
moved towards him to kiss his lips. He moved away.
“Thank you,” he
said.
I
felt like banging my head, and his, against a wall.
“I will talk to Chettan
(elder brother),” he said.
I
must have moved back or screamed silently.
He
stood up.
“Where are you going?” I asked.
“To talk to him,” he
said, a little bemused by my question.
“Now?”
He
smiled. “Don’t worry.”
“Don’t worry?” I
muttered to myself as I followed that man downstairs to Shekhar’s office.
He
knocked on the door and entered. I waited outside. Shekhar saw me and nodded.
Shekhar
leaned back in his office chair, his attention totally on Unni.
Unni
stood in front, within arm’s reach of his brother.
“I love her,” Unni
said. I felt my legs go weak.
“Who?” Shekhar asked.
“G3,” Unni replied.
Shekhar
closed his eyes for a while. He blindly reached for his brother’s hand. Unni went closer. They remained that way for a
long time, holding hands, Shekhar resting his head against Unni’s side.
“Let me talk to her,” Shekhar said.
Unni nodded.
They
came out together, towards me.
“Let’s go for a walk to the river,” Shekhar said.
xxx
He
took me to Moonattumukku, the lovely shallow part of the river with the confluence of three branches
where my friends and I went swimming.
We
sat on a rock, side by side. I thought about what had happened to Vamanan.
“I am sorry,” Shekhar
said.
I
must have let out a strangled cry for help. Shekhar looked at my trembling self
with surprise.
“Gaia...are you ok?”
I
shook my head. He reached for a handful of water and splashed it on my face. I
spluttered.
“Please don’t...” Did I cry?
“Don’t...what?”
“Don’t kill me...not like Vamanan, please...” I must have said.
“What else did your friends tell you...am I a serial murderer?” Shekhar wiped my face with his mundu.
I
collected what was left of my senses.
“Then, why did you say sorry?” I asked.
“I guess we have reached that stage when the past
matters,” he said.
About
twenty five back, Shekhar did exceedingly well in the school-leaving exams. His
parents decided to send him abroad. Shekhar was lucky to get into an
undergraduate program at Columbia, that too with a generous scholarship.
Shekhar
stayed with his mother’s best friend from childhood
Supriya who lived and worked near the
University. An affair developed between the eighteen-year-old boy and the
forty-two-year-old lady. It resulted in a pregnancy. They informed Shekhar’s parents. His parents got their visa a month later and boarded the first
available flight.
His
mother fought with her best friend. At first, she refused to speak to her son.
She stayed on and took care of them. His father left for the village after a
fortnight and returned only a month before the due date. Shekhar’s father informed the village that his wife had been
advised not to travel.
There
were complications due to premature birth and age-related reasons. Supriya died
after giving birth.
Shekhar,
his parents and the baby returned to the village. This time, his father told
the village that there was surprising news, that his wife had had another baby,
made in the USA.
Shekhar’s parents died in a road accident around then.
Shekhar, at the age of twenty or so, became father, brother and everything to
his sisters and the latest addition to the family, Unni.
No
one other than Shekhar and I knew of this story.
He
continued, “With any other couple, in such a case, I would tell
the husband in my position to disappear from the scene. But, it’s complicated with Unni. I can’t shirk my responsibility towards him. And, more
importantly, if I leave...he might respond in ways I do not want to think of,
not just to himself but to you too.” He paused. “Do you understand?”
I
nodded. I had understood that much about Unni.
We
remained silent for a long while.
“But...isn’t it wrong when I am his stepmother?” I asked.
“Gaia, you are not a label,” Shekhar said.
With
a sigh, he got up. He helped me rise to my feet.
“What should I...we do?” I asked.
“We
will do what adults do,” he said. “Let time play its part.”
We
have two kids now. Everyone knows
about our arrangement.
xxx
That
is why the lover of the married woman dared to ask my husband, “You...the village King Solomon...in this
house...deciding my punishment? What wrong have I done that has not been done
here? Go on, punish me...but, first tell me why there is no punishment for the
people of this house.”
I
watched the proceedings in the courtyard from my perch on the first floor.
Unni
and his dog were ready to go for the jugular. Shekhar pursed his lips. He
looked at Unni, shook his head. Shekhar turned to face his accuser.
“You have raised a valid point,” Shekhar said.
“She consented,” the
lover said. “What did we do wrong?”
“You know the ways of our village,” Shekhar
said. “She does not have to
ask her husband for consent or anything. But, that’s not the case with you, is it?”
There
was no reply.
“Is it?” Shekhar asked again.
“No,” the lover said.
Shekhar
addressed the group. “Someone neutral should handle the punishment,
be moderate, talk if you can.”
They
left our courtyard. Shekhar walked over to Unni. They talked about the fields
they had to attend to that day. They looked up, saw me. They smiled.